Thank you, Andrew, for staying and sharing your convictions that give deep purpose to living here, now. YI often wonder if I will have such courage and hope. Peace to your holy mnrřueuuuuuuu
Judy, I used to wonder how I would face a situation like this. It's hard, physically, very hard, but emotionally and spiritually, no. I would like to say that I grew to meet the challenge, but I think it was God that stooped to conquer my fears.
Grace, I'm honoured. I won't deny the suffering, but it brings a certain lightness of heart, and the ability to truly enjoy each moment, even those which really, really hurt.
The pain has a purpose. One might be tempted to think it unfair, but fairness is not justice, and justice is not punishment.
In a very real and practical sense, my life's path led me to the place I am now, where I can look dispassionately at the pain and constrained future, and savour each moment without bitterness...and, hopefully, reach others through my words. That is Justice, really, being able to do what I believe God intended for my life.
Each endless night now, more and more,
I feel in every cancer'd bone
that angels stand outside the door
and weeping, yearn to take me home
to that place beyond the pain,
to the joy beyond the fight
where I could leap and run again
through waterfalls of living light.
Through tears they cannot comprehend
what is compelling me to stay.
Why won't I smile, and thus commend
my spirit to another day?
I know ahead lie grace and beauty,
but here I stand, and here lies duty.
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I have had near-death experiences. In each, I was given a choice to stay, or to return.
I have never regretted the choices. Heaven will be wonderful, but it's not made for me.
Not yet.
Thank you, Andrew, for staying and sharing your convictions that give deep purpose to living here, now. YI often wonder if I will have such courage and hope. Peace to your holy mnrřueuuuuuuu
Judy, I used to wonder how I would face a situation like this. It's hard, physically, very hard, but emotionally and spiritually, no. I would like to say that I grew to meet the challenge, but I think it was God that stooped to conquer my fears.
Still more poetry to write! I’ve been enjoying your work. Thank you for the effort it is taking to stay and to write.
Grace, I'm honoured. I won't deny the suffering, but it brings a certain lightness of heart, and the ability to truly enjoy each moment, even those which really, really hurt.
The pain has a purpose. One might be tempted to think it unfair, but fairness is not justice, and justice is not punishment.
In a very real and practical sense, my life's path led me to the place I am now, where I can look dispassionately at the pain and constrained future, and savour each moment without bitterness...and, hopefully, reach others through my words. That is Justice, really, being able to do what I believe God intended for my life.